it's amazing how weird i am. even i am amazed. like seriously, one moment i'm all stressed up, and the next, somehow i'll miraculously manage to calm myself down. and then the next, when i feel all stressed up again, somehow my problems are solved. like wow, all i can say is, 走一步算一步, 因为船到桥头自然直(: so maybe i havent been putting in my best, maybe i havent been pushing myself as well as others hard enough, i have no idea, but even so, i know for sure what i'm doing i hope is for everyone to benefit the most from my actions (i'm applying utilitarianism here - check up the dictionary if you dont know what that means). i agree sometimes i may not have been fair or so in what i do, but nonetheless, i really didnt mean it. do i see any improvement? i have no idea. and this alone shows what an epic failure i am.
i have no idea why i decided to post this. i guess, it's cause of another's post.
i need to start putting things straight, and get back onto the right track. first is my studies. it's deteriorating badly. second is piano. i've never found it so challenging until now, race against time. third is floorball. i admit the team might not be improving much, and i really need to get us to reach that specific checkpoint in floorball. seriously, no more fooling around. time for serious business.