Monday, November 02, 2009
5:09 PM
I'M FEELING REALLY CONFUSED AND STRESSED TODAY.i dont know if i should sign up for the moe pre-u scholarship. i dont know if i wanna join sapphire scholars. i dont know if i should join a second cca. i dont know if i can finish my project on time. i dont know if i can take diploma next year or not. i dont know if i should try for the nus music scholarship. i dont know how to go about doing things now. i dont know if i'll be able to cope with the amount of work i have now. i dont know if i can even manage one more thing, one more responsibility, one more commitment.
and when i couldnt have my icecream today, i realised how confused and stressed up i am.
i was really sad. like my only source of happiness is stripped away from me. everything seems to be a blur. total blur, that i cant bring myself to stop and look at them carefully. i just skip through everything, and end up not accomplishing anything.
i feel stressed. i feel confused. but somehow, i have to pull myself together, because i know, no one else but myself can overcome all these. and i know, i cant be absent for anything, because then, i would only feel even more guilty, more stressed.
now i just wanna get through each day safely, to put up with the rain, get through the storm, and reach the other side of the rainbow.