Sunday, August 29, 2010
10:02 PM
i realised i've forgotten how a team should be like.didnt really elaborate much on agape training yesterday. intensity was low, drills were slow, everyone was just sian and tired, coming late for training. marcus got angry and disappointed. he questioned us, why were we there that day. who do we play for. why he was making us run. all those questions. everytime we answered, i guess it was not satisfactory. we ran. and we ran again and again. then he said, those who cant run anymore please get out. by all means get out, i want to see how many of you can remain there. by then i was really sick, the flu getting into me. but because of what he said, i felt determined to fight on, and to finish the runs.then, he gave us 20mins to cool down and talk. we can choose to talk for 19mins and keep quiet for 1minute. or talk for 1min and keep quiet for 19mins. it's how we want to make use of the time we had. we talked it out, and we became closer in a matter of 20mins or more (: i guess this is what a team should be like. talking it out, being straightforward. we all joined agape, not because we were forced to, it's because we love floorball. we love the sport, we want to play as a team somewhere, to achieve something. during training, we have to forget all out troubles and give it our best for ourselves, for the team, for coach. it is unfair that he gives his 100% when we only give our 20%. i admire marcus, he can really make us think and reflect.and as i said, lunch was enjoyable (: wonderful team lunch. this is what i call a team.isnt it weird if we cannot speak our minds during training, we fool around during trainings, waste time dilly dally, complain this complain that. it's not a team if we hang out only in our cliques. what about biasness. it isnt a team celebration if it was not planned by the team together. and if anyone of us is missing. this team is falling apart, i can feel it. i'm going to give it one last try, i want it to work. i miss being in a team. i miss training hard and playing hard. now just sucks. it's like i'm going for the sake of going. i'm committed and i'm obliged to go. floorball is no longer fun if we do not play our best and play as a team. it is a team sport. everyone is important.two years ago, i joined floorball. training was tough. very tough. but every training was enjoyable. mer was a good captain. the whole team was supportive and awesome. then comes training with karen. i admire her as she can command the whole team to listen and to respect her. tough training, but i kept up with it to improve myself so that i could be something in nationals when i could play. trainings were fun with all the gossips and stuff. when i was captain, i made it a point to incorporate fun during training and to make sure training standards did not drop. and now, i'm really disappointed. i cant believe in the short 3 years that i've been in nj, it changed so much. the emotion, and feeling when i go for trainings. it's different.
dear girls, let's buck up. i'm not using team as of now because we are definitely not a team. not YET. and i believe we will become one soon (: i'm just waiting for that day to come.
